Day 3 - post on Facebook from earlier today

Feeling like crap. Was awake a bit last night, feeling incredibly nauseous. This really sucks. I am second-guessing myself right now, and I am only a few days into this. I remember the oncologist's dismay that I would not just get on chemo just to stay alive. This does not feel like life. I can barely function. I am going to do all I can to create a miracle in the next 9 weeks. This has to be over quickly. No promises were made to me about surgery - only chemo first, then we will see. As far as I am concerned, I say chemo, and then miracle. No sign of cancer. Feel free to send all good thoughts of love and healing my way. All Reiki appreciated. At the moment I just do not know how I will get through this.