Friday, November 2, 2012


So this is me today.  I am wearing a cap
I bought in anticipation of hair loss.  I
wore the cap the day I wrote about meeting
someone on the train during the summer.

I had said I would share some things from
that meeting, but I never received them.
Since she knew how to get a hold of me,
I never asked her for any of her contact
info, and since I have never heard from
her, I have nothing to share.

Oh well.

I probably looked a bit better that day, given I was at least wearing
make-up.  Sadly, the roseacea I have seems to be a lot worse with
the chemo treatments.  My poor face got really bad at one point.
So grateful for make-up.  Amazing what it can do.

I am debating about trying to go out tonight.  There is an event
with a bunch of strangers that I can attend.  I am wondering if I
am up for it.  It is one thing to be around those you know.  It takes
a little extra something when you don't know the people you are
meeting up with.

I am also feeling very tired.
And irritable.
And antsy.
And anxious.

At the same time, I HAVE to get back to doing things at some
point.  There are so many reasons.  I have a few hours to decide
what I am going to do, but then it will take me about an hour to
get ready.  There is no way I would go out looking like this. I
feel like I want to hide from the world when I am not "edited."

Maybe I will try to sleep a bit and see if that helps.

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