Times Like This

Times like this are really difficult. I feel so alone. I feel disregarded. I feel like I don't matter. "Everyone" is off living their lives, and I am sitting here alone, but not necessarily by choice.

I have tried calling about half a dozen people. All I get is voicemail. I can't just call anyone, either, given the state I am in. I learned that lesson a long time ago.

Times like this I really think it wouldn't matter whether I inhabited the planet, or not. This isn't all the time, but it is much more of the time than most may realize.

I have never been one to have many friends, and in dealing with cancer, that part of my world has grown even smaller.

Feeling incredibly low and sad right now.